FEELING 'GRIEVY'...

The other week Ada and I were standing at the living room window waiting for my dad to arrive to look after her for the day so I could go to work. He usually arrives by 9.15am so we perched ourselves as usual by the bay window so she could see his car pull up and give him all the usual exuberant greetings as he walks up the path to the front door. 9.20am rolled by and there was no sign of him. 9.30am hit and still no dad, so I called him and didn't get an answer. 9.40am came and he was still not here and wasn't answering his phone. As the minutes passed I had myself convinced he was dead.

He's not here, he's not answering his phone, he must be dead.

ASSEMBLY SPRING/SUMMER GATHERING - ALL THE DETAILS...

ASSEMBLY SPRING/SUMMER GATHERING - ALL THE DETAILS...

It's been almost two weeks since 30 of us met at the most beautiful property in rural Co. Down to make, eat and build community as creative women.

We couldn't have had a more perfect evening together. I say that without any hesitation of over-selling what we experienced and in full gratitude to the team of incredible women that made it happen. 

I had many moments of hesitation about doing a gathering so soon after the passing of my mum but it really was the tonic and focus I needed to push through a little bit more. Once again I was blown away by how courageous and honest these women were. All coming from different walks, different backgrounds and different points in their creative journey. It was a gentle, warm and inspiring night. I will try to keep my words few here and let the incredible Kat Mervyn do the talking through her lens as she captured our gathering so perfectly in these images.

5 TIPS FOR FINDING + FOLLOWING YOUR PASSION

5 TIPS FOR FINDING + FOLLOWING YOUR PASSION

I truly believe that when people are true to themselves and have the freedom to pursue what they are passionate about the world becomes a better place.

Catherine of Siena said "Be who God meant you to be and you will set the world on fire". I love this quote because it speaks truth into the notion that when we are being our truest selves, our most switched on to the things that make us come alive, we are giving the world our best. When we thrive, the world thrives. What we need is more people doing work and life in a more whole-hearted way.

I love nothing more than meeting people who have identified their passion, the thing that makes their soul bubble up and are making space for that in their life - these people are contagious and often seem to have a deep contentment. This is not to say that your passion should become your full-time job or that following your passion is easy. It isn't. Sometimes pursuing our passion takes grit, bravery and patience but there is an understanding deep within us that what we are doing matters, sets us alight and makes us a bit more whole.  

I think this can be especially hard once you become a parent. The responsibilities of life can take over and it can be hard to feel like you really know yourself anymore. Sometimes life can be all routine, all expectations and can veer us away from the important pursuit of the things that spark us. There's a temptation to accept that life really is about duty, and that finding and following your passion is only for the few - but I disagree. We can all find something that puts fire in our belly, whatever the season of life we are in.

ASSEMBLY SPRING/SUMMER GATHERING - TICKETS ON SALE NOW!

ASSEMBLY SPRING/SUMMER GATHERING - TICKETS ON SALE NOW!

I was really unsure if I was up to making a Spring/Summer Assembly Gathering happen after the loss of my mum and the last couple of months of emotional chaos but this little Assembly community is a bright light for me - it really is.  The idea of continuing to grow this tribe of warm-hearted and supportive creative women is something that brings me joy and putting it together energises me so here we are. And I'm so glad. 

Our Spring/Summer Gathering is set to be our most haven-like creative experience yet. I don't know about you but I am so ready to escape, eat, make and connect.

THIS IS WHAT GRIEF IS LIKE

THIS IS WHAT GRIEF IS LIKE

I don’t even know where to begin this but writing is part of my catharsis so here goes. I guess this is what grief looks like. A long string of uncertainty – of mixed up feelings – like someone took all of the emotions a person can contain, put them in a bag and shook them around vigorously and laid them out in front of me, all mixed up. Here you go - here is your mind for the foreseeable future.  Fear sitting beside hope, shock on top of love, sadness under gratitude.

This is what grief feels like.

What I’m starting to realise is that there is no rhythm to this; no expectation of what a day will bring when you are in the throes of grief.  

My mum died.

I don’t know when that sentence will never look normal to me. Probably never.